Those 4 letters carried me through my darkest times with fibromyalgia and being a parent of a bipolar son. I found a ring that held those letters and when my hope of being better started to fade I had that ring to remind me to keep going! And in turn, when I thought I could not take another belittling session from my son, or endure one of his rage episodes I knew that “Hope” would get me through.


Well recently I want to memorialize that word a bit more permanently. I began toying around with a tattoo. Now, let me tell you getting a tattoo was no light decision. My mother is probably rolling around in her grave, but this is what I needed to do for me! So, I thought long and hard about how to translate all I wanted into a tattoo, I came up with this…


SO… the infinity symbol is for the love between my hubby and I. He has been by my side even at the bottom! He did all the cleaning, shuffling kids and grocery shopping when they were just beyond my ability to get done for the day. He chauffeured me to dr appointments when I could not get myself there. He fought with the doctors for answers…22 years of marriage + 7 dating so I think we are set for eternity.

Hubby is a police officer so that is the thin blue line in the middle that ties all officers and their families together. AND HOPE to remind me that with hope I can face any challenge. (Even the parenting a teenager with bipolar challenge)



Life Changer – Raindrop Massage

In reading about Fibromyalgia and alternate treatments I came across Raindrop Therapy Massage. So my quest began to understand what this was and to have it done for me!

Of course there was NO ONE in my area who knew what this was or was trained in it!

So I placed an order for the Raindrop Therapy Kit… The day it came it took all my strength NOT to break it open! The kit contains a CD in which someone can follow the steps to do the massage.  I really wanted a trained massage therapist to do this for me. So my quest began!Raindrop Therapy

I started down my friend list and searched out anyone who knew a massage therapist. It took time but in the end I conquered and found a person with an open mind and heart. (Summer of 2014) I brought her my kit and off we set on the journey to healing!


Let me just give the warning that this IS NO REGULAR massage! The oils are powerful stuff and will clean out your lymphatic system that gets clogged up and causes inflammation to run rampant in your system!

I explained to my therapist how I was feeling throughout the entire process and let me tell you my body went through a transformation through the message. The effects of clearing out your lymphatic system is not painless BUT let me say within a few days my body SHOCKED me… The joint pain, muscle pain, sludgy feeling subsided! I journaled my progression. It really was nothing short of AMAZING and NOT AT ALL WHAT I HAD EXPECTED!!!

Since that time I have had a second massage and I maintain a pain free body. This is from a place of darkness, one I NEVER could have believed would have be me! Literally from the brink of disability to functional and who would believe pain free.

So as maintenance I apply the oils in the Raindrop massage nightly in the form of Raindrop in a Bottle.

Raindrop in a bottle

What are the Benefits of Raindrop Technique?

* Balance and re-align the energy centers of the body

* Re-alings the spine in a non-manipulative manner

* Reduce stress and anxiety

* Reduce Inflammation in the body

* Relax muscles

* Relieve pain

* Create a hostile environment for viruses and bacteria along the spine

* Improve circulation

* Improve immune system functions

* Emotional well being and release

* Help detox the body systems


It scares me now to think what IF I had never tried this… Blessings that this was put in front of me!

Lemongrass – Inflammation Reducer and Oh so much More!

My biggest improvement came after realizing that this Essential Oil was ESSENTIAL for me on a DAILY basis! I was taking 5 drops a day in a capsule, inflammation in my joints and muscles was decreasing!


Then… the dreaded hysterectomy and the doctors told me no anti-inflammatories. I asked if Essential Oils that worked on inflammation counted? The doctor did a quick read on the internet of Lemongrass (Nope, he did not know too much about Essential Oils) and said “YES, You need to stop it for a week prior and up to two weeks after due to the risk of bleeding”. No anti-inflammories before and after surgery!  I did not think too much about it at first… It would just be a few weeks!


Well as you know when things are going well somehow you seem to quickly forget about how bad things were. After three days my hands were sooo painful in the am I began to wonder WHAT is going on? When my knees and hips were back to feeling like I was 80 (NO, I am NOT even close) I knew something was up! My pain level quickly increased!

pain rating

I went through my routine and questioned, “What was different?” When I saw the lemongrass bottle sitting in the back corner of the counter where I moved it so I did not accidentally take it before my surgery I was hit like a TON of BRICKS! 5 little drops could do that? Well I SUFFERED and I do mean SUFFERED through the next three weeks and then once I returned the heavenly little bottle back to my stash of daily oils I bumped the 5 drops up to 10! My thoughts were if 5 did that what would 10 do! I started taking 5am and  5 pm! Well, I am happy to report with the maintainance of this I am virtually pain-free in the joints and muscles. (Of course, this in addition to my other daily oils)


Just read at ALL of the benefits of Lemongrass Oil!!! Really, It IS QUITE AMAZING!!!

Analgesic: Things that are considered an analgesic reduce pain and inflammation. Lemongrass Essential Oil helps relieve pain in muscles and joints, as well as toothaches and headaches resulting from viral infections like cough, cold, influenza, fever. It also helps cure general body pain resulting from strenuous activities and athletics.

Antidepressant: Boosts self esteem, confidence, hope and mental strength, and it uplifts spirits and fights depression. This can be very helpful to drive away depression due to failures in their career, personal life, insecurity, loneliness, stagnation, death in the family and many other reasons. This also relieves anxiety. As an antidepressant, lemongrass can be systematically administered to patients of acute depression who are undergoing rehabilitation after acute shock. Basically, take it with your tea and relax.

Antimicrobial and Antibacterial: Lemongrass has antimicrobial properties which makes it an inhibitor of microbial and bacterial growth in the body, both internally and externally. It is also known to be effective in inhibiting bacterial infections in the colon, stomach, urinary tracts, wounds, respiratory system, and other organ systems. while also helping to cure diseases resulting from bacterial or microbial infections such as typhoid, food poisoning, skin diseases, and body odor.

Anti-pyretic: An anti-pyretic is an agent that brings down very high fevers. This is quite similar to a febrifuge but it is effective on very high fevers as well. This oil can bring down a fever when it is beginning to reach dangerous levels. This property of Lemongrass, which comes from its essential oils, is widely known and utilized. It is often served in tea for this very purpose.

Antiseptic: The antiseptic properties of Lemongrass Oil make it a good application for external and internal wounds as well as an ingredient of antiseptic lotions and creams. The antiseptic properties of this oil do not let the external and internal cuts and wounds become septic.

Astringent: An astringent helps the stoppage of blood flow by contraction of the blood vessels. If someone is bleeding profusely, you need to utilize an astringent to speed up clotting of the blood and stop the flow to save his or her life. The fact that lemongrass is an astringent helps in a different way too. It promotes contraction of gums, hair follicles, muscles, skin and blood vessels, thereby preventing loosening and falling out of teeth, hair loss and it reduces the flow of blood through the vessels. Some of these properties can be life-saving, so lemongrass is an essential source of astringent.

Deodorant: Lemongrass Oil is far better than many of the synthetic deodorants that are a big expense, a heavy impact on the environment, and have limited lasting power. Also, those types of deodorant can sometimes produce irritation on the skin and can exacerbate certain allergies. Lemongrass oil can be a far better choice as a deodorant because it does not do any of these things. In a diluted form, it serves as an efficient deodorant without any side effects. The best thing about this is that it is herbal, so there is no damage to your body or the environment.

Diuretic: Lemongrass Oil increases urination, both in frequency and in quantity. This may sound not that important but it can be very beneficial for health. When a person urinates, fats are lost from the body, because 4% of the volume of urine is composed of fats. Obviously, the more you urinate, the more you lose fat. Urination also promotes digestion and inhibits the formation of excess gas. It removes excess water from the body and reduces swelling. Its most important contribution is that it removes toxins from the body, not to mention its ability to reduce blood pressure. That is the reason that most pharmaceutical medications for lowering blood pressure induce frequent urination. Urination also helps clean out the kidneys.

Febrifuge: Lemongrass Oil helps bring down fevers by battling the infections from which the fever is caused, as well as by increasing perspiration, which induces sweating out of toxins.

Fungicidal: Lemongrass Oil has good fungicidal properties and may be used to cure fungal infections, both external and internal.

Insecticidal: Lemongrass is quite popular as an insect repellant due to its insecticidal properties. It kills insects and also keeps them away, but there isn’t enough research to know exactly which insects it affects, so there is no promise on cockroaches!

Nervine: Lemongrass Essential Oil acts as a tonic for the nerves and the nervous system in general. It helps cure many nervous disorders such as shaking hands or limbs, nervousness, vertigo, Alzihemer’s disease, Parkinson’s disease and convulsions, sluggishness, and lack of reflexes. It strengthens the nerves throughout the body and stimulates them.

Sedative: Being a sedative is perhaps one of the most important and most appreciated medicinal properties of Lemongrass Oil. It has a great soothing, sedating and calming effects on mind, cures inflammations, itching of skin and it relieves tension and anxiety. This feature can help patients of insomnia as well.

Tonic: An agent which tones up and boosts health is a tonic. Lemongrass Oil is a tonic in a very clear sense. It tones all the systems functioning in the body, such as respiratory system, digestive system, nervous system and excretory system and facilitates absorption of nutrients into the body, thus providing strength and boosting the immune system.

Having Lived with Chronic pain I have learned may things including to…

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Pan Away = Pain Away

I was hooked the minute I felt the relief of Panaway! Everything I ever knew healing wise was bought at a Pharmacy or Big Box retail shop, prescribed by a doctor with a WARNING LABEL written all over it! This little bottle with the blue label blew my mind! Within several minutes of rubbing a few drops, on a tender area, of course fibromyalgia related for me, the intensity of the pain decreased. I soon made this bottle my best friend! Yep, it went to work with me, cause gosh forbid I did not have it, then I would be in PAIN and have ANXIETY about being in pain! Funny? But if you live with chronic pain it is the TRUTH!


Living in chronic pain became a little bit easier! I now had one useful tool that could knock my pain down from a 6-7 to a 3-4. Not perfect but is was enough to make me research additional oils especially ones for pain and inflammation! Here was me the one with 25 prescription bottles sitting finding more oils (NOT PILLS) to help me to help myself! Now I am NO DOCTOR and having been given EVERY TEST under the moon, had plenty of time to understand my body (certainly not that LIKED it) and given my diagnoses, I can safely say I wanted a VAT of this stuff!

Just look what it can do! Who doesn’t stumble across pain once in awhile?


Wintergreen, helichysum, clove and peppermint are natures beauties in this blend!


First Steps

I took that proverbial leap of faith and ordered my Premium Starter Kit from Young Living. Waiting for that one Fed-Ex delivery felt like my life had be put into slow motion.

The arrival of that package was a turning point for me! Physically, emotionally and mentally! The unpacking was like a chrysalis emerging from a cocoon! Unpacking the kit was like a celebration!


So, out I popped the diffuser. If you have never heard of one of these and at that time I had NOT, all I can say is hands down this is the most used “appliance” now in my house now!!!

What does it do you ask? Ha, what doesn’t it do? No really… ok, the technical explanation is a Diffuser combines a humidifier, air purifier, atomizer, and aromatherapy diffuser into one product that safely releases essential oils into the air to eliminate odors and create a spa-like atmosphere.
Sounds great? Well it is all that x 10!!!

I filled it up with water and then… Ohhh my which little bottle of gold to choose???


So, I got sidetracked for about 15 minutes as I sat down an did the “sniff test”. Each bottle was gently opened and given a sniff, one was so uniquely better than the one before and (insert scratch and sniff mode here… GLORIOUS!!!)

I ended up deciding on Purification! I wasn’t looking for it to really do anything at that moment other than smell really good so this was the best choice! Within minutes my kitchen smelled with a light fresh scent and my love affair with the diffuser began!


Then I sat down with the bottle of Panaway. This was one of the things that grabbed my attention as I did my “research”! With Fibromyalgia I live with Pain and boy did I ever NEED this!!!! If you have pain you need Panaway = Painaway!!! I rubbed a bit on a knot in my shoulder and within the pain went from moderate to light and mind you this was WAY more than OTC pain relievers could do!
I knew in that moment I had hit the jackpot! Here was a small bottle with a blue label that could strangely relieve pain like Tylenol, Motrin, Advil could not do. I felt the $150 for the starter set was a STEAL!!!
I felt then I knew many people who NEED this!!!!! Heck Who DOES NOT NEED THIS!!!!


To Leap or Not To Leap?

And so the journey began…

So picture this, me standing in my kitchen, stack of medical bills on the table, my FB news feed full of posts about being in pain, counter full of prescription bottles and a message on my computer from my friend Amy that I should consider using essential oils to help me with my fibromyalgia.

Wait… what? Essential what? Yes, of course I was skeptical I had NEVER heard of this term, “essential oils” it sounded like a foreign language to me… OK, I remember thinking, “I’ll just send her a message and get the info and kindly get back to her… with a sorry but they can’t help me” or a “I will be sure to check them out!” And then insert cricket sounds… chirp…chirp…chirp…

Message sent… Amy: “I started using Young Living’s Essential Oils, I think they can help you!”


Me: “Nice, I will check them out and get back to you!”

Ahhhh Yeah! Research I did!!! Now I can sit back and laugh at myself, but then it was serious business. Once I sent Amy the message… my gut got to taking over…here is someone who has something that might help me…it sounds easy enough for me to “get”…she got it and they are helping HER family so MAYBE, just MAYBE they can help me… but fibromyalgia is so complicated… I will show her they can’t help me… I entered the World Wide Web and typed in “essential oils” not sure what to expect but the second I hit enter a whole new world opened up to me! TIME SUCK- Several hours later and yeah I had probably had Cheetos and a soda while researching… I emerged blurry eyed and intoxicated! Nope, I don’t drink… INFORMATION INTOXICATION… I you better bet I was DIZZY!!!!

OK, I must have lived in a bubble for the past 45 years because here was this whole hidden world I did not even know existed. Yeah, I am college educated, working at an environmental science elementary school and I had just discovered an alternate plane. What I learned in a nutshell…

Really the nutshell is hugely huge and hard to put into words but here were the “essence of plants” that could help with healing. They could help ME with healing. What feeling I got in those few hours was HOPE!

Message: Me “Hey, Amy how do I get some? I want to try them!”hope