Behind the Badge

SO I get many friends asking me… “Aren’t you scared?”, “How do you let him go?”

My husband is a police officer and in these times things can be a bit scary. This is my hubby’s second career… You know that job you always dreamed of doing? The one you said,  “if I could do it all over again I would…” Well he DID IT! (That story is another post!)

Here is my thinking. I could fear every night he goes out, yep he works 5 pm – 5 am and be consumed with this fear quite easily… or I could resolve to know that his training, gut and men and women in blue have his back.I chose the second!

I encourage you to take the time to think about the fact that the men and women who go out each day to protect you are HUMANS. They are not “out to get you”. They are just doing their job and they have families to come home to.  Take a quick second to say hello! Believe me I know they love to be acknowledged! Know they are real people with real feelings and behind them is a loving wife, husband, mother, father, sister, brother and maybe even children.

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I am third in from right, on second to last row.

I am blessed to be part of a really great group of women who provide support. They know what it is like to be the wife of a law enforcement officer. They are a “tribe” of women who stick together, chat online at all hours if need be, contribute back to the community, and do oh so much more!

If you are feeling isolated or alone I encourage you to reach out and find what you need. These women have taught me YOU ARE NEVER ALONE!!!

Hope

Those 4 letters carried me through my darkest times with fibromyalgia and being a parent of a bipolar son. I found a ring that held those letters and when my hope of being better started to fade I had that ring to remind me to keep going! And in turn, when I thought I could not take another belittling session from my son, or endure one of his rage episodes I knew that “Hope” would get me through.

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Well recently I want to memorialize that word a bit more permanently. I began toying around with a tattoo. Now, let me tell you getting a tattoo was no light decision. My mother is probably rolling around in her grave, but this is what I needed to do for me! So, I thought long and hard about how to translate all I wanted into a tattoo, I came up with this…

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SO… the infinity symbol is for the love between my hubby and I. He has been by my side even at the bottom! He did all the cleaning, shuffling kids and grocery shopping when they were just beyond my ability to get done for the day. He chauffeured me to dr appointments when I could not get myself there. He fought with the doctors for answers…22 years of marriage + 7 dating so I think we are set for eternity.

Hubby is a police officer so that is the thin blue line in the middle that ties all officers and their families together. AND HOPE to remind me that with hope I can face any challenge. (Even the parenting a teenager with bipolar challenge)

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