Behind the Badge

SO I get many friends asking me… “Aren’t you scared?”, “How do you let him go?”

My husband is a police officer and in these times things can be a bit scary. This is my hubby’s second career… You know that job you always dreamed of doing? The one you said,  “if I could do it all over again I would…” Well he DID IT! (That story is another post!)

Here is my thinking. I could fear every night he goes out, yep he works 5 pm – 5 am and be consumed with this fear quite easily… or I could resolve to know that his training, gut and men and women in blue have his back.I chose the second!

I encourage you to take the time to think about the fact that the men and women who go out each day to protect you are HUMANS. They are not “out to get you”. They are just doing their job and they have families to come home to.  Take a quick second to say hello! Believe me I know they love to be acknowledged! Know they are real people with real feelings and behind them is a loving wife, husband, mother, father, sister, brother and maybe even children.

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I am third in from right, on second to last row.

I am blessed to be part of a really great group of women who provide support. They know what it is like to be the wife of a law enforcement officer. They are a “tribe” of women who stick together, chat online at all hours if need be, contribute back to the community, and do oh so much more!

If you are feeling isolated or alone I encourage you to reach out and find what you need. These women have taught me YOU ARE NEVER ALONE!!!

Hope

Those 4 letters carried me through my darkest times with fibromyalgia and being a parent of a bipolar son. I found a ring that held those letters and when my hope of being better started to fade I had that ring to remind me to keep going! And in turn, when I thought I could not take another belittling session from my son, or endure one of his rage episodes I knew that “Hope” would get me through.

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Well recently I want to memorialize that word a bit more permanently. I began toying around with a tattoo. Now, let me tell you getting a tattoo was no light decision. My mother is probably rolling around in her grave, but this is what I needed to do for me! So, I thought long and hard about how to translate all I wanted into a tattoo, I came up with this…

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SO… the infinity symbol is for the love between my hubby and I. He has been by my side even at the bottom! He did all the cleaning, shuffling kids and grocery shopping when they were just beyond my ability to get done for the day. He chauffeured me to dr appointments when I could not get myself there. He fought with the doctors for answers…22 years of marriage + 7 dating so I think we are set for eternity.

Hubby is a police officer so that is the thin blue line in the middle that ties all officers and their families together. AND HOPE to remind me that with hope I can face any challenge. (Even the parenting a teenager with bipolar challenge)

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Sharing Your World 2015: Week 4

As usual it has been a roller coaster of a week.

Where did you live at age five?  Is it the same place or town you live now?

I lived in Tampa, Florida with my mom. She was a single parent and we lived in a one bedroom apartment which I remember vividly.

Surprisingly I learned this past October that at age 3 my mother took me away from my father. I of course knew nothing about this. My mom is gone and can not ask. But my father told me he came home from work and my mom and I were gone! He did not hear from my mom again until I was 5! I can’t imagine his pain!!! This leaves me wondering so much!!! My was BLOWN AWAY by this news. and strangely enough it came up in casual conversation with my daughter and my father. I knew nothing about this and at this point… not sure I wanna know more…

You are invited to a party that will be attended by many fascinating people you never met.  Would you attend this party if you were to go by yourself?

I would go by myself. I am at the point in my life when I say no regrets. You never know how your life could change by who you meet.. I could meet someone I could learn so much from!

Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it?

I grew up in Tampa from age 3 to age 10. I loved the special places my mom took me. I did fly to Chicago each summer solo to visit my uncle, my mom’s brother. I absolutely loved this town!!! There is soooo much to see and do. We moved back there at age 12 just for 2 years and loved all the museums, zoos and parks.

As a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

As a kid I do not remember wanting to be anything. Weird I know! But as a teen my thoughts were architect, oceanographer, psychologist. In college, my first four years, my major was psychology. In year 5, I changed my major to special education. I use psychology everyday in my classroom.

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

From last week I am grateful for a a lot.

1. My son who last year thought he would not graduate from high school received a letter to the Honor Society. He has returned to the public school system after 3 years of virtual school and clearly is ROCKING it! Proof, that if you set your mind to something you can do it!! Proud momma moment!

2. I spent almost 2 hours on the phone with my daughter this past weekend! I loved every minute of it!!!

3. I am thankful for my journey with Young Living. Both sides of using oils hit home this week. One they kept me healthy with the dreaded flu going around school, I have been heavily oiled! And when our bank account fell short this month my extra income saved the day!I look forward to a quiet weekend as this week is almost over! Hubby is working his weekend so this police wife gets to spend it alone…

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Me at age 5

Me and my dad- October 2014

Me and my dad- October 2014

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